It's not easy to be away. I'm missing important stuff. I don't get to talk to "my" people.
At the same time, I often feel like this is healthier. I cannot solve everyone's problems. I cannot take responsibility for things and situations that I have not been involved in. It's tiring when everyone expects me to have a magic wand to fix everything.
I imagine that perhaps another way to understand (and continue) with long distance friendships and family ties, is to just assume that I will not be there for relevant events, but that I can enjoy them for one month per year and share just regular time.
I could not have imagined all the things that have happened during this years in Belgium. I cannot see what will come next. Not clearly.
In the meantime, thanks for the stars and for the hand that holds me and the guy that decided that I was worth a try.
