Leaving behind

Places are the people and experiences connected to them. The studio was a very lonely place for the most part. There were no friends and a bunch of sad memories connected to it. Still, the tiny place was "my home" for more than 5 years, my little refuge. I carried a key to its door for 5.10 years. 

Today that place goes back into the rentals market. My story is now going into a new direction and I have a new home.

I'm leaving behind 5.10 years. Just that.

Qué semana

De todas las cosas que podían salir mal, muchas lo hicieron. De manera particular, el destino decidió jugar con mi tiempo, todo el tiempo. Retrasos, conexiones perdidas, sueño no repuesto, cambios, frustración, lluvia y frío. Fue una semana especialmente larga y difícil. 

On the irony, the changes and the overwhelming related feelings

I have been awake for many hours by now. Started my Wednesday at 4:40 after a not at all good sleep. The studio is humid and cold and empty. I'm exhausted. I'm upset and extremely emotional. A 40 minutes delay sounds to me like a schedule change... 40 minutes are an eternity when being this tired. And the taxi is always there, before the agreed time and I function badly because I haven't slept properly. And the cat is probably about to go on a strike because I'm sure the food wasn't enough. Fu** Belgian railways man! Terrible service. And the pretzel with cheese was nice and warm, and being at the Frankfurt book fair for the first time was cool too. Cleaning for the last time the studio brought back a lot of memories and made me feel super emotional. I remembered things that can still hurt me. Man... Life and its misteryous ways. Who would have known/said. I remember opening th door lock on 31/12/2008, while 01/01/2009 was starting. Now, 5.10 years later... I remembered the days when I would only talk to myself, the sugeries, baking, brewing tea, having Mexican breakfast over the weekend. Such a bittersweet flavor. By the way, the irony is having to pay for the ride today, the day of the worst delay so far!! 

Going back & leaving at the same time

In a funny sort of circumstance. We moved back to our old street at work and I will be soon leaving the studio. Both things happening now.

I'm back in the place where things in Brussels started from: the office. I am at the same time in a completely different situation from a personal point of view. It still surprises me how life (my life) changed in the course of these 5.5 years, how I'm in a totally and unimagined place now. I could have never imagined. Really.

Am I afraid of the changes coming my way? Clearly I am, but I'm going to accept the challenges and make the best out of this new opportunity.

Ser de aquí

Un cielo azul, azul persistente. Un sol que te acaricia la piel o te tatúa con su calor intenso. El sonido de la música prehispánica. Las especias, el picante, el maíz en todas sus formas y colores. 

Ser de aquí, de este México que es tan mágico como injusto. Ser de aquí y de tantos otros lugares a estas alturas de mi vida. 

Saber que estos sabores, esta gente y estos paisajes son mi esencia. Que estoy hecha de maíz y que mi piel y mis ojos no pueden gritar más fuerte "México" -y estar orgullosa de ello-.

Saber que poner mi vida en una maleta también me ha hecho un poco de allá. De cada otro lugar y de cada otro rostro.

Verano

Es un verano diferente, tengo visitas en México en mi mes de vacaciones.

Las cosas no son perfectas, no en el DF, pero estoy pasando unos días increíbles con Den y Olie. La química es buena y ninguna de nosotras es demasiado "picky". Lo único malo es que Tami no está aquí, con nosotras.

Además de estar disfrutando estos días y de sentir que me derrito en este calor, también extraño mucho a Jo, aún hablando todos los días. Creo que es una buena prueba para nuestra relación...

Forever... 21

And that was the "FOREVER", but Forever 21!!! LOL

I was really having fun at the idea. Promises of forever or at least that's what we think love is about. About forever, about never leaving each other and stuff like that.

Seeing from the distance, my eyes and all the memories have new meanings. I'm hoping to be able to continue looking at the past in this way, and to keep building new things so I don't have to miss the past.