Te entiendo

And I always will...

Sometimes -I don't know why- there's a phrase that sticks to my mind for a while. Lately it is "te entiendo..." and I guess I do.

I understand you and I always will. More than ever, I know you are right and that every step and every decision was the best for you and even if sometimes it doesn't look that way, it was the best for me too.

Understanding nowadays seems to be a much broader concept. Many pieces have come together and I've been able to see a bigger picture.

Maybe those phrases in my mind are things that I didn't say. Maybe I didn't have the time. Maybe I couldn't see those things back then. Maybe it was too early to feel like I do now.

Anyway, I guess it's just that I understand you... Understand everything and I'm in peace, at least with myself.

Nada que decir

Hay días como estos en los que no tengo nada más que decir. Va mas allá de los malos recuerdos y los dolores... va mas allá de las sonrisas y los buenos momentos. Simplemente no tengo nada mas que decir. Nada mas que agregar.

Es "chistoso" como pasado el tiempo finalmente comprendí que hay cosas que ya no son asunto mío. Algo que aunque fingía saber desde hace mucho tiempo, hasta ahora puedo sentirlo como real: none of my business. Finalmente me siento así. Nada de lo pasado es ya asunto mío...

Grrrrr

Hoy:
Logré entrar a Bélgica otra vez
Sin noticias de la comuna
Tranvía que pasa como diligencia
Mil doscientas cosas que hacer en la oficina
200 "reminders" acerca de esa cosa discutida doscientas veces
Reunión de dos horas...
Personas "escapando" del trabajo. Personas que invierten más tiempo escapando de tareas, que lo que les tomaría hacer las cosas
Transporte como diligencia. Perdida de tiempo.
Lavandería
Transporte como diligencia...
Emails con la misma instrucción!
Un invierno que no termina
Un adaptador para la corriente destrozado...
Mis hormonas al límite!

Dublín

Unos días en Dublín: trabajo, caras conocidas y cansancio acumulado. Salidas, copas, fotos y cansancio acumulado. Arepas, Yile, alfajores, mi primera referencia en Alemania -sort of- y el cansancio acumulado.

Además del frío, la lluvia y St. Patrick's day, estos días aquí fueron para practicar el arte de la diplomacia y la buena educación. Funny enough.

Días así...

En días como estos todavía siento frustración. Entiendo las razones, sé que fue por mi propio bien, pero eso no evita que me sienta frustrada e incapaz de retener.

Por suerte un fin de semana en un lugar nuevo me espera con los brazos abiertos.

Saturday...

Pushing myself. Didn't stay home. Will not do that. Weather can be shity. I will still do things.

I've never liked the rain and/or the humidity. I love the sun, I love Mexico City average temperature. Then life put me in this place.

I've always hated having to carry an umbrella. I hate ruining my shoes because of the rain. I hate having  a wet coat after a walk in the rain. I hate being cold afterwards. Yet this is the place where I live...

Pardon me

Worn out faces hanging on the wall
Foreign places, names you still recall
You say loud to yourself "why you just don't care?"
Say the things no one else will ever dare.

So pardon me for asking, pardon me for thinking
All of me is asking, all of me is thinking
So say it loud if you need it, we've got tough emotions
Do what you don't do
So say it loud when you need it, we've got tough emotions
I'm in awe of you

So you lie to yourself
Why you just aren't scared
All the things that you felt, were always there

So pardon me for asking, pardon me for thinking
All of me is asking, all of me is thinking
So say it loud if you need it, we've got tough emotions
Do what you don't do
So say it loud when you need it, we've got tough emotions
I'm in awe of you

From the splash to a big fail

TGIF and I'll have a nice weekend...

Sunday night, on my way back to Brussels. My Friday splash ended up by being a big fail. How come I got to see that version of you? How come you decided to take that path. Wait!! That's you, the real you, I guess.

Running away and the feeling of not wanting to be found again. Less drama, but feeling like I have to run and by that to let you know that I'm a self sufficient person and that you cannot use my time. No matter where in the world I am.

I have such a mix of feelings and thoughts. Don't get why the idea of seeing each other for such shared time. I have to admit that after those hours, I'm confused, not only about you, but also about my life and the way that I react to things. I'm confused about the direction, about what should come next.