Il ne faut pas & 15.1, 15.2, 15.3...

No hace falta seguirse lamentando por lo que no fue.
No hace falta seguir echando de menos aquello que no va a volver.
No hace falta perder el tiempo asi.
No es necesario seguir insistiendo.
No hay utilidad en extrañar aquello que se ha perdido para siempre.
Il ne faut pas de faire toute ça.

#15: Do you want to stay in my life? Oui?

#15

It was good, #15 was good. Good like to see you again and hear you talking to me in French -and to realize that I can understand most of it!!-. 

Yeah, let's do it again. Who knows, the sparkle might be waiting for us to find/feel it. 

Busy weekend. It felt like water going trough my fingers. Feeling like I've reached the balance again and that everything is going to be ok.

Quelque chose (#something.something)

Friend zoned! There you go. It was a terrible choice but since you insist, welcome to friend zone land. Now, friendship is a pretty complex concept in my book, but for the moment there's no other category where you could fit.

As dad said, it just gets worst because it's not enough with things like good intentions and solid values. It gets all waaaaay more complex, because I want it all and I want it now! 

Nowhere closer, but having fun with the game at the moment. 

Somos

Los que quedaron,

Los mutilados,

Los incompletos,
Los insensibles,
Los egoístas,

Los fallados,

Los lentos,

Los mentirosos,

Los fracasados,

Los cobardes,

Los mediocres,

Los incapaces,

Los inestables,

Los orgullosos,

Los soberbios,
Los "demasiado bueno para ser verdad",

Los que no saben comprometerse (ni siquiera al nivel mas elemental), 

Los que viven de glorias pasadas y no se dan cuenta de que no supieron adaptarse a los nuevos tiempos,

A veces también los demasiado fuertes e independientes (que no pueden o no saben aceptar que necesitan de otros).

#14

1, 2, 3, 14 as Bono says…

So number 14 arrived. No, no, no.

I was just thinking over the weekend if I was perhaps getting closer. No, I'm not. Not really. It all seems to me a waste of time and energy. It all seems like a big promise that never ends becoming real.

Also, someone put me in an hypothetical situation and made me realize that time won't stop. It never will. And again, I'm not getting any closer.

Anyway, it was a good weekend nevertheless. Avec galet de rois :)

All the angles

And quite often I forget all the implications and the angles of a given situation. I forget the many negative aspects of people and situations. Thankfully they bounce back and help me to rethink in a broader and "better" way and to reconfirm that decisions taken weren't for free.

One day things had a certain shape because of specific circumstances. People needed me in one way or another. Then, one day, those needs changed and  I was left thinking that I could get back stuff that will never come back simply because we are now under very different circumstances.            

Have I done the same myself? Most likely. Have I used people? For sure I did (and I continue doing it). Perhaps it is just human nature. Maybe we are just a bunch of selfish creatures in the search of covering our needs regardless of what's left behind.

Today all the negative aspects came to my mind. It was not the best way to start a day, but it will always be a powerful reminder of why I am here, in the current circumstances. In fact, the same though passed my mind like a furious animal already last week. A very irrational, but still authentic (and most likely real as well) related expression came to my mind. It's all there.

2014

Así que cerré 2013 mal y 2014 no comenzo mucho mejor. Ahora toca recuperar el paso, reencontrar el frágil balance de antes y hacer lo que corresponda para enderezar el camino. Toca olvidarse de diciembre y enero consecutivamente.

Lo cierto es que las cosas que pasaron -y algunas que siguen pasando-, solamente me ayudan a tener más claro que Bruselas sigue siendo mi lugar y que es aquí en donde me conviene estar. Tambien está claro que sigo siendo el capitán de mi propio barco y la única persona por la que debo preocuparme (y ocuparme de).

He decidido que 2014 será un año muy "movido" y que gracias a cierto "permiso", va siendo hora de nuevas oportunidades (reales, no fingidas).

Alors, bienvenue 2014.

To remember

Nunca pongas signo de interrogación en donde Dios ya puso punto final.

Nunca mejor expresado.

Y ni siquiera

Ni siquiera da para llorar o para quejarse. No da para pensar más. No da para lamentarse. No da para nada más.

Da para cambiar de página y jamás voltear en esta dirección otra vez. Da para entender por vez última que se agotaron todos los recursos y que mantener la distancia era y seguirá siendo la fórmula.

Da para comenzar de nuevo, con el año y no abrir las puertas de historias fallidas nunca más. Da para recordar lo afortunada que soy por poder elegir que puedo pasar de capítulo, cerrar el ciclo y comenzar otra vez.

Da para dar una nueva oportunidad a alguien más. Da para perdonarme por algo de lo que no tengo la culpa. Da para aceptar y por siempre respetar las decisiones de los otros aunque no me hagan feliz.

Da para dejar ir el capricho y olvidarme de los berrinches cuando la gente no hace o dice lo que yo espero.

A bad decision

I guess I needed to make a mistake again. I guess I really needed to. And it was all my fault. I've heard and seen the things that I did before once again. But I'm so stubborn that I decided to come to verify and "double" check again.

I guess this is also a way of closure. I still think it was useful even when I didn't get what the childish person in me wanted. At the end I'm always the one that ends on a bad position because I melt down and because it's too hard for me to accept that good thing will never last as long as bad things do.

I opened this door again even when I've known that it should stay closed. I'm closing it again and I have the firm intention of stopping being stubborn about this and close the cycle for real. It's time to finally open it for someone else. It's time to give myself another chance.

Gracias. Cuidate mucho, siempre.