Entre los dedos...

Como el agua, el tiempo se me escapa de entre las manos.

Casi el final de noviembre. Noviembre 2013. Apenas "ayer" estuve en México para recibir 2013. Cómo se puede pasar el tiempo así de rápido? 

Y la vida va bien y yo con ella, solamente me angustia como se me escapan los días y últimamente los años también. 

2014. Cómo hiciste para llegar tan pronto? Cómo hiciste para deshacerte del 2013? Cómo piensas tratarnos?

Mientras el tiempo se pasa volando, yo me quitó las canas, me pongo crema antiarrugas más de una vez al día y siento la angustia del "tiempo pérdido". 

Estoy deseando que la vida me ayude a comprender que no hay días inútiles y que  me envíe un breve recordatorio de la fortuna de estar viva y con salud. Quizás hacia falta escribir precisamente esto...

Help Me Lose My Mind

Talk to me
And watch me crumble
You will see..
Me come undone
Faithfully
I will look over
There I’ll find
What you’ve become

You
Help me lose my mind
And you believe
Something I can’t define
Help me lose my mind, make me wonder
What I thought before
Keep biding my time
How much longer?
Have I’ve been waiting for

Jealousy
Will be washed over
Carefully
We will come through
Could it be
Easy to start over?
Sound how I
Will bring you to

#11 íbamos bien con el no

De cuando los patos le tiran a las escopetas...

Íbamos bien con el no. Íbamos bien con esa dinámica, pero claro, se me olvidan los límites para al final ser yo quien termina en una posición ridícula. 

Y sé que nuestro paso por la vida de otras personas tiene siempre un propósito y en este caso es aprendizaje. Aprender por ejemplo a ser consecuente y a seguir mi sexto sentido y no dejar que me endulcen el oído.

De cualquier forma fueron un par de buenos días. Claro, hay que verle el lado positivo a las cosas, cierto?

Et voilá. Ces't ça!

It was because of the flats

It was because of the flats that I walked so much in Istanbul. It was also because of the flats that we sort of had a couple of "dates" there. It was because of the flats that I did not mind you being shorter than 1.80, but as you say "I don't know", you just had other qualities that I found very nice. I would have never thought...

For a couple of days and maybe more precisely, for a few hours, I had this nice feeling of "not everything is lost" and that was thanks to you. I was extremely tired, but sharing time with you made me feel happy and relaxed. I know my face said something different with those black bags under my eyes. The lack of sleep is a normal thing during this time of the year, but I still enjoyed your company and the laughs, sharing with you some of our most private matters and so on.

And I really have to thank you for being such a respectful person, for not letting the fun and nice time to become a mistake. It wasn't appropriate and even when it was frustrating, we both knew it was the correct thing to do. Thanks for that.

Chaotically breathtaking

I guess this is how I would describe Istanbul. I haven't seen that much. I have the feeling that you really need more than just a couple of days to really discover this chaotically breathtaking city.

It is such a clash of views, ways, colors, smells... It's really breathtaking. It's a city of cats, of mosques, of water, of shisha, of smokers, of extreme beliefs. It's a city that wants to live like Europe, but that has all this magnificent background that seems to me related to the Islam. 

It's easy to hear the chants when one of the prayers is taking place (I believe it happens 5 times per day). People will simply go on their knees and start praying. It's impressive! And you'll get the chills when the chanting fills the air of the city. Nothing stops, but the chanting is just there, like if it was the soundtrack of the city... 

These have been such intense days: from the team here, to the running around during the event, to the few hours of sleep, to the delicious food, to the very modern people, to the sellers on the street... I feel so dizzy, it has been so intense! 

On top of everything, dealing with an ex, meeting new people, enjoying long talks and hugs coming from strange people. I have my eyes and soul so overloaded now that I could use a good nap...