Crystal clear

We first open a window so people can have a look. We then open the door and show all that we are, all that we have. We are crystal clear to them. For a very few: the "lucky" ones.

When opening that door, we show how vulnerable we are, the many things that we are not proud of. We show the complexity of our being. We cry and yell. We laugh and we have fun. Just like anyone else, sure, but not quite like that. A privileged view of oneself and the many demons inside is given to very few people. They see how fragile and how bright our life can be. This, a view with ups and downs (probably more downs tough), is what we give out when in a relationship. Different levels of it, but that's what we give.

Unfortunately this privileged view that we once (or twice) gave, becomes one of the most precious treasures when after some time we realize that it is time to keep it for ourselves. A wide access and view to what we really are is not longer needed after a couple of experiences (mostly bad ones). It becomes enough with the superficial touch and the little conversation and the wide open eyes when something completely irrelevant is being said.

So, let's stay in the surface, I don't think I could survive drowning down again.